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Wednesday, 18 January 2012

  • Xanga App

    So, I'm writing this on my iPad using the new Xanga app while I'm waiting for the transfusions for my son to complete. I have to say this certainly beats the non-free app that was the only way to connect previously. It's still kinda basic but it works for my purposes and it'll my get better I imagine.

    At any rate, I owe yous an update. Considering I can't remember what all I said last time I'll just go with what's new for now. Christmas has come and gone and with it a plethora of gifts for my son. He got many new and fun toys this year and was very good at picking out some of his old toys to give away to kids who don't have much to play with now. He's very good about thinking about others. He only has one more scheduled treatment day for this phase of his chemotherapy and then he will go into Maintenance. That means once-a-month visits with chemo instead of every week. His hair will grow back completely,his stamina will return,and he will be able to return to all the things he couldn't do before like camp and swimming. We are very fortunate that he is doing as well as he is now.

    On the home front Suz and I just completed a realignment of our finances so we could determine just how much money we had to put towards a house if we happen to find one that suits us this spring. We recently replaced the Grand Prix as it was on its last legs, er uh, tires. Now I just need to get mine through inspection this year without costing me a small fortune. I'm already seeing $500 for new tires. Ugh.

    I turn 35 in a few days. I can't tell if I'm even phased by that. I'm mean age is nothing but a number but I know that there's certain lifestyle changes that I'm in need of making. Mostly better eating and getting off my ass more, but still things that I should be doing. School has started back up again for me. Intro to Philosophy. Sounds weird when you're going for a CIS degree but since all the other Humanities classes didn't interest me and I actually LIKE Philosophy, this was a win-win for me. I'll probably even take the second offering of Ethics too. The Creative Writing for Short Stories and Fiction looked good, but last thing I want is to spoil my hobby by fighting for a good grade.

    Speaking of hobbies I can't tell if I'm due for a change or if it's just the winter that has me feeling blah. I haven't had much interest in painting or playing BattleTech these past few months, but I don't have anything that has stolen away my attention either. Maybe once all this hectic pace slows down, I can focus again on some fun stuff.

Monday, 28 November 2011

  • The End of the World

    With all the zombie hype lately, it’s hard to not fantasize about the theoretical outbreak that would certainly doom this planet to near extinction.  Between the Zombie movies,World War Z and The Walking Dead we’ve been show a plethora of possible regarding what may or may not one day come crashing through out front doors bleeding and snapping it’s lifeless jaws at us.

    The question is, are you ready?

    No, I mean are you REALLY ready??

    Yeah, me neither.  The main problem that we all face is that we’ve been Hollywood-trained to prepare for this cataclysmic event and they’ve really glossed over the sticking points with the need to “entertain”.  I’m not saying they need to make an honest-to-Pete survival guide for every American,but I can really see there being major problems if this should ever come to pass.

    First, let’s be brutally honest.  Any outbreak, regardless of where it happens,will spread like wildfire until people begin to recognize it for what it really is.  That small group of knowledgeable folk will be those of us that actually WATCH this stuff like its real.  We expect weird, strange stories in the news about quarantines, people dying mysteriously, and other random events that would be tied back to an outbreak.  As an example, there are roughly 18,000 people in my township as of 2010.  If 10% of them watched any zombie media that leaves 16,200 souls that will undoubtedly find themselves running for their lives, or running after their next meal. Sixteen thousand people that will get in your way, prevent your escape,or kill you in their attempt to get out before you.

    And I don’t live in a rural area where there’s distance to the next town.  Nope, we’re stacked on top of each other like flapjacks which means we will be pulling in the infected from other areas adding to that already overwhelming number.  I’d have to count the townships but in my COUNTY alone is 500,000 people.  That’s a LOT of walking dead.  THINK about that if your first thought is to bunker down and wait it out.

    In order to bunker down, you need to understand that all basic utilities will be cut off.  No lights, no motor cars, not a single luxury. No running water, no heat, no air conditioning and most certainly no noise.  There’s no way you will last if the dead know where you are, so plan on lots of silence.  You’ll need enough food for you and your party and it will have to be non-perishable and require little to no cooking.  No noise and to be safe, no smells.  It’s all speculation but you don’t want to find out the hard way that zombie CAN smell. Add to the food, all the water you’ll need.  A place to put refuse so that it doesn’t contaminate the living quarters. Medicines, first aid supplies, weapons, etc etc.  Oh yeah, and a nice solid place to PUT all this.  Simply boarding up your house will not help.  Wood rots, glass breaks and a couple hundred pounding bodies will break through even the most, well-thought defenses after days and days and days of non-stop effort.  How will you defend you and your family if you’ve been kept awake for 4 straight days?

    Sure, bunkering is a good idea but unless you’re in the middle of NOWHERE do not do it in populated areas.  Unless you’ve actually constructed a concrete bunker complex in your backyard.  Which would be really cool.  Anyhoo.

    No, the real simple answer is to get the hell out of Dodge.  Pronto. Grab everything that would’ve gone into a bunker situation and pack it to go.  Team up with friends and family that have access to properties or places that are out of the way.  Look for mountain homes, cabins and such and at higher elevations and latitudes.  If anything can be hoped from World War Z is that they freeze in the colder climates, making them easier to dispatch. Hi Canada, I’m looking at YOU.

    Pack 4x4s to the gills with SURVIVAL GEAR.  Your daughters Hello Kitty sleeping bag isn’t going to cut it.  You need something that will survive at -20, or even better -40. Warm clothes, backpacking gear that’s small and compact and edged weapons.  Yes a firearm is a good idea but think genius: where are you going to get more bullets?  Do you HONESTLY plan to walk miles and miles with 80lbs of ammo strapped to your back when food would be better suited?  You can’t EAT a .45 bullet.  Well you could, but then why waste the effort?

    Ammo is good but you’re not going to be able to carry everything.  I watch The Walking Dead and the group is firing off rounds in non-emergency situations and I’d LOVE to know where they are going to get resupplied. Two people with edged weapons, spikes or anything sharp should be able to isolate a walker and dispatch it inside of 3 seconds.  A well-armed, well-trained group can protect itself with no loses against a pack and make little to no noise in doing so.  They can certainly see, perhaps they can smell, but you KNOW they can hear.  Gunfire is the LAST thing you want to announce your presence.  The group of 15-30 you just wiped out could be replaced by the 1,000-3,000 that just heard your shots within a day.  Also, since sound travels out concentrically(in circles), you just surrounded yourself. Way to go, dead meat.

    The best hope is that we get the slow, ambling walker and not the super zombies of I am Legend and 28 Days.  If it’s super zombies, well, I hope there’s an afterlife.  But scientifically speaking, they should be slow, and that means that you have a chance.  You’ll have to watch out for fresh reanimates as they’ll probably move much faster than the average dead-head.  Ones that jumped to their death or were torn apart before returning will be good as that should slow them down.  As time wears on, and they hopefully decay and begin to fall apart, they should slow even more.  If you use pack tactics and separate the able bodied ones from the slower ones, you can whittle them down without facing the full force at once.  Never go at a pack.  String them out through streets and cars, or find some thick forest area with hills to spread them out.  Imagine if you get to the top of a steep incline, you can bash them in the head one at a time as they begin to reach you.  Why waste energy fighting a crowd when you can kill them one at a time?

    Something else to consider is the group mentality.  Whether you’ve joined up with family,friends, or just strangers working together to survive you have to follow some basic principles that we all would frown upon in this day and age.

    First, the safety of the group comes first.  Those individuals that cannot conform to that principle would have to leave or be removed. I’m not jeopardizing the lives of my family because some ass thinks this is nothing and wants to do their own thing. Noise discipline has to be enforced, food rationing along with hunting and foraging would be paramount, and shelter and security would be non-negotiable.

    Secondly, everyone would be required to do everything that everyone else can do.  If I can teach defense tactics, then everyone will learn them. If you can teach knots and snares, then you will teach everyone.  If you know farming, then you will teach everyone.  No one person is allowed to maintain a skill that the group can afford to lose.  If the only person that can shoot is killed,then the rest of the group is screwed.  Everyone must learn every available skill to survive.

    Thirdly, there is a fluid hierarchy that must be accepted.  This is such that those in the group are senior to all of those that enter the group until such time that the newcomers can exhibit a significant percentage of the skills of the group as a whole and have mastered most if not all the nuances of the behavior of the group.  There is no one leader, no alpha male, no General in command.  The group operates as a collective, rational mind because as I said before, you can’t have that one leader get killed and then you have no governance of the group.  It’ll be difficult at first to put some direction and command in place, but you can’t have a half dozen people screaming that they know best and wind up attracting the dead right into your camp.

    The best advice would be gather as much supplies as you can,avoid populated areas and hope to hell that the military takes over with a SENSIBLE plan and wipes out the undead with no hesitation so that you can return to your home as quickly as possible. Am I saying you need to run out right now and buy 100 days worth of MREs?  No, but when the news reports start to come in about mysterious illnesses, disappearances, quarantines…

     

    Don't wait.  RUN.

     

Wednesday, 09 November 2011

  • Once More...With FEELING

    Ok, an obvious homage to one of my favorite TV shows but also our theme for this week.  There's a lot of repeat this week, so I'll try to keep it in perspective.

    I'm back in school work through my College Algebra class and currently dragging a solid A with me.  It's certainly not easy and I could swear that this stuff was simple when I learned it in High School.  Evidently my adult brain has not retained it as well as I'd hoped.  Personally I'd like to shiv Descartes with a quadratic polynomial right about now but that's besides the point.

    Work is going well in the sense that I'm certainly not looking for things to do.  I'm updating our Windows 7 image for all the new software and languages we need, plus revamping our deployment tools and processes to streamline them and improve them.  Add to that a slew of other things and I'm a busy beaver.

    Home is good.  We're working on a 3-year plan to get the ball rolling on a few things, some goals that we'd like to get in and off the radar.  Maybe some house hunting, car replacing, and things like that.  Mom is doing very well and her treatments seem to be improving her situation greatly.  We were all very worried for some time there but I dare say things are looking up.

    Gannon is doing well.  In his last of four in-hospital chemo sessions for this phase.  The high-dose methotrexate has to be administered over a 24-hour period followed by daily monitoring and blood draws to ensure that it washes through his system correctly.  So it's anywhere from 4-5 days at CHOP until he clears and then we go home.  The nice thing is that this round hasn't been such a hit to his counts that he's been in great spirits the entire time.  School has been over the top with working with us and him to keep him right in line with the rest of his class.  Even going so far as to get him into an IEP to get him the additional help he needs while he's out of the classroom.  It's been a big weight off our shoulders to have so much support with this massive undertaking.

    The holidays are getting closer and luckily I think we've gotten all of Gannon's shopping done with a few minor things.  I've gotten Suzanna pretty much squared away and I've done my best to give her enough ideas for me.  Our 1st anniversary is coming up too.  I hope she likes what I've thought up.

    I was able to get my latest piece to my BattleTech fan fiction uploaded the other week and it's made me consider either shelving the entire thing for lack of time or really figuring out a schedule where I can devote more time to creative writing.  I certainly don't do enough leisure activities any more and it's high time I either find a new(er) hobby or more time for the current ones.

    And that's about it, in a nutshell.

Tuesday, 06 September 2011

  • Breathing a sign of relief while waiting for the other shoe to drop and beating a dead horse.

    How cliche of me?  But of course!  What else would I be doing instead of reading the assigned school material on the first week of class now that things have slightly calmed down to a semi-manageable level?  That was rhetorical by the way.

    And since I can't seem to concentrate on anything but this headache and my desire for sleep, I figured I'd blog first to get some things of my chest and out of my head.  *takes a swat at an imaginary fly*  Since there's only 3 months left to this sucky year, I best recap up to the last blog entry so that I can keep things straight when I'm old and my great-grandkids come visit me in the home.

    So far, Gannon has been doing very well with his treatments.  We're now a week away from his last and final checkup of the second phase before moving immediately into the third phase.  Essentially, next Tuesday we'll go to clinic and if his blood counts are good, we'll get setup and admitted back downtown at CHOP Main Campus where he will spend four days in the hospital dealing with Intrathecal MT, High-Dose IV MT, VinChristine, and MK pills.  Then we'll have a week off, and then we repeat the four in-hospital days all over again.  He has four scheduled in-hospital visits, but the phase runs over 64 days, so essentially we'll be going right up until Thanksgiving with this round.

    Then we repeat two months of outpatient work again, which takes us into the early months of 2012.  After that, there's some debate if he'll go another round of in-hospital work or if he'll go into maintenance which is just once a month for the next 2-2.5 years.  Either way, we know we're in this for the long haul and we've settled into not having a routine for the most part.  Weeks can't be preset because more often than not we arrive at clinic on Tuesday only to discover his counts of something are so low he has to come back Friday for a transfusion.  Last week it was platelets, the week before whole blood.  Chemo is some nasty shit.  It kills of your body, stopping it from trying to kill you off itself.  *snort chuckle*

    The support from family, friends, and co-workers has been top-notch through all this.  My Mom, who's fighting her own fight right now, has been a rock through all this and one whom I think I take after when it comes to my rational, logical side.  I think we're partial Vulcans.  My friends have been there to listen and to praise and to promote so much for Gannon and myself.  I don't think I would've been able to supply the boy with nearly two companies of BattleMechs, a demi-company of armor, and BattleArmor in a unified paint-scheme without them.  It's a good thing I moved Gannon's Cannons to a bigger shelf because I understand there's more coming in the mail yet.  My co-workers have been beyond supportive and understanding, even so far as to unconditionally accept my unpredictable schedule with trying to cover time working remotely and care for my son.  I believe with sincere certainty that several of my previous employers would've forced me into FMLA by now.  When my CEO told me to do what I needed to do and let them know if I needed ANYTHING, he meant it 100%.  I couldn't ask for a better boss and company to work with.  Even my BattleTech boss has manage to surprise me with some cool news.

    So, that's the current story in a nutshell.  A routine of uncertainty and repetition while moving towards an achievable goal of getting Gannon cancer free.  Every day that he's with us, I'm thankful for and grateful for this wonderful recovery that he is accomplishing with bravery and courage that you would not normally see in a 7-years old child.  I just hope that this event in his life hasn't somehow robbed him of a childhood that he more than deserves to experience.  I hope that I will still be a fair and effective parent years down the road, unchanged by the horrible times of the past.  I cherish these moments of clarity.

    And then I go to sleep.


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